sad and a little drunk

what do you do when you think your friends are stealing from you? ditch them right? i feel like i can't be friends with them b/c i can't be friends with a theif. i feel like something has died. i'm so sad. i have no friends that i can trust. i've spent the whole day crying and i can't stop. to be perfectly honest i have no friends at all. i feel like the biggest loser and social retard that ever lived. i'm so damn gullable it makes me sick. i hate myself rigt now. i feel like such a fucking idiot. i''d rather have friends than be friends with white trash and another thing, why do people still the things that are the most sentimentle possessions you own? fuck that. i've been trying so hard to be a better person and i keep getting shit on. i can't beleive how good i'm typing right now. i hope no one i know is reading this. i have no one else to talk to so i have to talk to a damn machine. this is taking me forever. hopefully i'll fall aslepp soon, bye